cursive - the recluse

although i was only 3 when the berlin wall was torn down, i'm starting to feel sort of old. 21 sort of feels like 29 for me. maybe its because i havent done as much as i would like to, chiefly, work love, and travel.


hmmm: http://www.beloit.edu/~pubaff/mindset/2011.php


i think the superbowl's still on

pinback - hurley

i'm having a difficult time trying to figure out what i want to do with my life, especially now as i get closer and closer to graduating.

i know what i would like to do, that is travel as much as i can and take advantage of the fact that i am young and uncomplicated by the responsibilities of adulthood that some of my friends have already gotten stuck in. unfortunately, despite the fact my parents are all for me going out and experiencing the world, i have a feeling they expect me to only be gone for a short while.


being an only child and given the circumstances that my family now find themselves in with the illnesses of my grandparents, i cant forget that my responsibilities as a son are to support my family. living in hostels/living rooms far away from home would only bring real joy to my life, but would do very little for my parents who can not pack up and leave as easily as i can.



in all honesty, for me, getting out of college and finding a job immediately are real signs that i messed up somewhere along the way. i'm really scared of finding myself at 23, with a stable job, paying car insurance, and sitting in traffic.


i really need to sit down and have a real lengthy talk with my parents and my department advisor.

south - shallow

i don't mean to come off as a hater, but linguine is vastly superior to angel hair spaghetti.

grizzly bear

it's sort of amazing to think that, before 1972, there was not a real complete photograph of earth from outerspace. before that famous 'blue marble' photo, all we had were maps. we take it for granted being the children born after 1972. and then i think about it, and its crazy.

my grandmother was 1, when the first 'unsilent' film came out.
she was 18 when allied forces landed on the norman coast.
43 when we landed on the moon. (that was 17 years before i was born)

and now she's already 80 something. its like 30 years disappeared somewhere in there. either that, or i'm getting old. i used to look back on the 80's being ten years ago, but now i realize, its not. its 20 years ago.

in a related article:

http://www.theonion.com/content/news_briefs/nation_suddenly_feels_old

crazy bread

its been like a day and a half but i already miss her. this is pretty lame.

vince gauraldi - charlie's christmas

As we sat there, drinking wine from our plastic cups, I couldn't help but think of my ailing grandfather, who up until 1 month ago I actually believed was the strongest old guy I ever met.

"Abuelito's dying," says my sister. I stop playing with the shrimp on my plate and say "Nahhh," but I'm really thinking "yeah, I know."

i remember watching this cartoon when i was a little turd. made during the Anschluss, this made lots of sense to me as an impressionable 8 year old and i wonder how eerie it must have been to watch this in 1940.



seeing that some of our earliest dug up human skeletons have spears going through them, i wonder if this is just a phase, or part of what makes us human.

in other news, i hope my friends don't think i'm a lush.

bjork - alarm call

i cant believe i made one of these. i think i'll only update this if i move to another city (again) or if i have dreams i want to remember.