pinback - hurley

i'm having a difficult time trying to figure out what i want to do with my life, especially now as i get closer and closer to graduating.

i know what i would like to do, that is travel as much as i can and take advantage of the fact that i am young and uncomplicated by the responsibilities of adulthood that some of my friends have already gotten stuck in. unfortunately, despite the fact my parents are all for me going out and experiencing the world, i have a feeling they expect me to only be gone for a short while.


being an only child and given the circumstances that my family now find themselves in with the illnesses of my grandparents, i cant forget that my responsibilities as a son are to support my family. living in hostels/living rooms far away from home would only bring real joy to my life, but would do very little for my parents who can not pack up and leave as easily as i can.



in all honesty, for me, getting out of college and finding a job immediately are real signs that i messed up somewhere along the way. i'm really scared of finding myself at 23, with a stable job, paying car insurance, and sitting in traffic.


i really need to sit down and have a real lengthy talk with my parents and my department advisor.